"Gotta Go- Gotta Leave" -Inspired by Vivian Green

Premise: The song "I Gotta go. I Gotta Leave." by  Vivian Green came out the year of 2005 and somewhere during that time I had just become affiliated with "Poetry Over Music" as I was reintroducing myself  to my first love, poetry. Now, Poetry Over Music was a new movement to get people to listen and become again inspired by words first, then music. 

When I came along they were already strong in numbers of Poets and Spoken Word artists and had made a CD. They were not for sale, promotional items only, for people to enjoy. However, they were in the process of creating another CD, called Poetry Over Music presents "Different Shades of Love" Volume 2. Now, how it was set up for us, they sent out a list of songs and it was on a first come, first serve basis. 

So, you would pick your selection and if you got it first, you must write a poem for the song you you've selected. Record it, send it and they would play your poem then the song or vice versa. I, picked Vivian Green's "I Gotta Go. I Gotta Leave." I was featured on that CD and to my surprise, rave reviews and now it has become a fan favorite. I love this poem, it speaks to so many hearts, especially mine. Without further ado, I give you....

"I Gotta Go-I Gotta Leave"

I sing the chorus of Vivian Green's same titled song:

I gotta go. I gotta leave.
So please don't make this hard for me.
I gave enough. I'm tired of love
I gotta let it go.

--Then begin...

I've been with you more than a few years now;
 and I just realized, that I'm done. Just realized
that I've spread myself too thin. And,

Since no one is looking out for me, including you.
I decided that this victory belongs to you. 
So you win!!! (applause)

For a moment, (I ain't gonna' lie) I was mad at you.
But then I thought to myself, well why am I mad at him?
Because I'm the one who decided to stay and work things through.

Because I should have a left the minute I began to feel it in my gut.
That I had, had enough; and I was no longer in love.
Now, I got the nerve to be angry , 'cause I've invested my time,
Over exhausted my mind. Stayed with swollen eyes, due to you making me cry.

Emotionally drained.
Heart palpitating with pain.
All the while trying to please you. I was going insane.

But you know what else I realized?
It was fear why I stayed.
For I was using my tears as an outlet
So mine leaving would be delayed.

But a long time ago I once told you that.
When my tears no longer drop,
 that is when I have stopped
   to assess, to see what I need to do
      so that I can get where I need to be
            and I've concluded that;

I Gotta' Go-I Gotta' Leave

Written by Until...
2005 (c)


*This piece has been performed many places. The latter was Max  Bloom Cafe Noir on August 1st of 2015. Until was the leading feature. If you would like to know more about Until and purchase her very first poetry edition, I Just Want to Write! Please visit her website at www.untilnomore.net and her book blog at www.ijwtw.blogspot.com. If you would like to hear her very first Spoken Word Poetry CD, check out below: 

Frozen featuring Until... "Spoken Word Poetry Piece"

 

Frozen 

See, I remember when I looked out for everyone.

But I also remember when no one looked out for me.

Same ones in my face, call me if you need anything;

The minute I asked, dismissed and ignored.

Didn't like how that felt

Stop feeling down on myself

No longer will I ask for help, anymore.

Yes sa' the streets have taught me.

My trust is no longer fun and free.

I became cold from others dissin' me

Rise like the Phoenix

I Rise...

Individual with foundational feet

Frozen is how I've become to overcome defeat

No favors here. Sorry. 

If there was ever a chance

It is now depleted

This takes place when peeps take my kindness for weakness and use me

Deceitfully sweet and discreet

However now you see

That do to you. I am NO longer me.

No compassion

I am....

Frozen

written by Wolfgang Amadeuz

Spoken Word Piece by Until

December 2011(c)

*This Spoken Word Piece written and performed by Until is featured on the album called "Programm'd Muzic (The EP) Volume 3 by Wolfgang Amadeuz "Track #5." If you would like to hear and purchase this piece, please click the link below:

http://wolfgangsproduction.bandcamp.com/track/frozen-ft-cera-bellum-until

There's a New Bard in Town...

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE________________________________________

Contact: Alethea Reece

Email:areece.bsp@gmail.com

 U (Press Release) - August 9, 2014
 
With a new book along with a Spoken Word Poetry CD now and Wow!!!

 
LOS ANGELES, CA--It is no mystery that ever since poet and writer Quanda R. Graves better known as Until, self-published her very first poetry edition; I Just Want to Write! It has been receiving great feedback. Ten years in the making and finally, July 3rd 2014, a dream come true. 

Now, what seems to be getting more of a buzz is not just her presentation of what customers receive when purchasing her book, but the free spoken-word poetry CD that comes inside of the package. Just like the book, this is also Until's very first spoken-word poetry CD project and she wanted them to go hand in hand. 

Word has it that people are in love with the creativity of it all.  Until states in her own words;

 "This CD illustrates what is known to be my moniker which is "Poetry is me. Therefore I am Poetry." When listening to this CD you will feel my heart, soul and my essence. Art, in its purest form. May you enjoy listening as much as I enjoyed creating it and putting it together." 

What people are saying about Until's spoken-word poetry CD is that not only do they love her poetry, they say it's original and ultra creative and most of all they enjoy her voice. To purchase Until's book "I Just Want to Write!" please visit her website www.untilnomore.net and to hear her spoken-word poetry CD project please check out the video listed below.

A Better Person by Until...

"Writing helps to keep me in perspective. It helps me recognize my wrongs, it guides me to do right. I can't live without it." ~ Until... (From my upcoming book in 2014)

I let my pen take a ride on the highest flight of my feelings

I let my pen take a ride on the lines toward my spiritual healing

Inking out perspectives and analyzing all of my imperfections

Writing them down one at a time, dividing them into sections

What ever impacts me, I find time to take notes

I then recap by reviewing what it is I just wrote

And I see that writing down my feelings is the perfect antidote

for me to become a better person

Until...

This poem is from the book entitled "I Just Want to Write!" and to pre-order your copy now, please visit my website at www.untilnomore.net.

Publishing date July 31, 2014

Must have missed that? by Until...

My life has always been complicated

From the beginning until now

My mother says that I'm chosen

And honestly I just can't see how

I must have missed that! Lol!!

Until...

How to Love

Do you remember when Love was a mutual feeling between two people? 

But now it's more like, if you Love me, then I'll love you.

Or you say it first and then I'll say it to you.

People categorize Love as you do for me and I'll do for you

Tit for tat, if you, then I You have to, I don't But I'm asking whatever happened to your whole feelings in the situation? Oh me, oh my, I sigh
Because whoever said that Love had to be a routine and whoever said that Love had to be an order or an obedient command Whoever told you that Love had to be mean or anyone else that Love is a certain demand
I got lost about the definition of Love a long time ago Besides Love to me is not what you say It's an action that some people just don't know
I used to know Love once, but I dare not know it now It's been so long that I can honestly that I've almost forgotten how...
How to Love.

Beautiful (All of the time) by Until...

Dedicated to Brian O'Neal: (A poem to go with his song called "Mesmerized")

Hey everyone!!! Today was the first day that I heard this song and it made me feel so free, so beautiful and sexy. It made me feel at peace, but I guess that's the power of music and the beautiful

people who create it. I've fallen in love with this song and I just wanted to say thank you to Brian O'Neal for bringing forth that feeling that lives inside of me being free from all of the burdens that sometimes life can bestow upon me.

The sun is shining

and the day is as beautiful as a bird in the sky

I am in my, spaghetti strap white tank top and ever flowing white linen skirt

enjoying the fragrances of the field of flowers that I am standing in

barefoot while my toes flirt with the grass and the dirt

As vibrant, colorful butterflies constantly flutter by

I feel so sexy, so radiant, I'm so thankful to be alive

My eyes are lightened by the sun

I am really enjoying me

Enjoying all that God created me to see

Becoming one with every breeze

Happy to finally be free

To feed the swans in the lake

Interact with the ladybug on my hand

A blue jay on my shoulder and together we stand;

mesmerized, as we watch quietly the willow trees sway back and forth

Bringing forth the winds to refresh the land

of the ever blazing heat ~ I love how nature speaks

I believe that this is how life is supposed to be...

Beautiful (All of the time)

Until..

This poem was published in Pure Thoughts Magazine. www.purethoughtsmagazine.com.
 

Sonia Sanchez (My Haiku) by Until...

"For those who are not familiar with what a Haiku is; it is a Japanese way of writing a poem which is written in 17 syllables divided into 3 lines of 5, 7, 5. I love Haiku's, which is why I had to get her book "Morning Haiku". Below is My Haiku celebrating Sonia Sanchez" ~Until...

I just love the way

Sonia Sanchez writes poems

She is amazing

~Until...

Until's Quote #1

If I always gave into my desires

that would prove that I have no resistance,

only willingness which means I'm subjective to anything.

~Until...

May God Bless You...

My house accepts no drama
And truly understands that God created Karma

So, in my house we live by the good and die by the good
We begin every morning with a prayer, as we should

You have to get yourself right;
before you can leave a message here
If you're unhappy with yourself
set a petition before the Lord and be sincere

And it is only until you begin to work on you
and change for the better
That then and only then we can
communicate with you and politic about whatever...May God Bless you


Until...

Begin Again

Sometimes we must go through
Big trials and tribulations before we can see

What it is that God wants us to see
Be who he wants us to be

Complications and situations make you
"Stronger" to bend but not break

To get you to give but don't take
Stop trying to do it yourself and
Give it to God when you pray

Leave your burdens with him
Don't worry about them

God has soul~control
On what will happen in the end
Regardless of your sin

Because he knows all
Believe it or not God is perfect with no flaws
So life can begin again


Until...

I Just Want to Write! by Until

I just want to write...
Grammatically incorrect
Grammatically correct
Have a cause and an effect

I just want to write...
Insert my soul in my pen
Smoothly ooze ink from my pen
Again and again
Share secrets with my paperPen and Paper are my two best-friends

I just want to write...

Capture my emotions within
Confess all of my sins
In many ways and many styles
Whether I write in a calmly or Chaotic fashion
Stand out and/or like Hennessey "Never Blend In"

I just want to write...
With enticement, with excitement
Whether I measure up to have poetry
And/or just literary license

I just want to write...
To touch and to soothe
To write is to ooze
All of my feelings
However I want to

I just want to write...
So when you read my book, enjoy it
Don't criticize or try
To size me up through the old/new
Great poets eyes

I write for me
I write for those who can see
That old and/or new
Newly inserted or deleted rules
Doesn't matter to me, honestly
I write poetry because... I just want to write

*From the upcoming book "I Just Want to Write" 2014   www.untilnomore.net
Pre -Order yours now. :)

Books by Until

Hard bounded and paper back

Books, books, books and more books

Gracing the wooden shelves beautifully

Displayed for your eyes to gaze and look

At the categories by the masses

Titles imaginatively vary

Awaiting you, to be bought, perused, admired and used

at the bookstore, cafe, online and especially the library

Until..

Coca Cola by Until...

"Coca Cola is my favorite soft drink. This is my way of celebrating the taste!" ~ Until...

It feels nice-cold in hand

Dripping with water drops

Can't wait to pop the top

And let the friendly bubbles jump out to greet my nose

while at the same time tickle my lips

As I anxiously take a sip

Of this chocolate brown substance with acidic greatness

To titillate my taste buds and arouse my tongue and throat

Gulp, Gulp, Gulp...

What? It's all gone?

Aw man. I need another coke!

Until...

On Guard by Until...

My life is so conflicted

Sometimes do to self infliction

And making bad decisions

Turns out to be great mistakes

Now I got to start all over again

Confused and don't know where to begin

Trying to tie up my lose ends

I want a clean slate

Life is long with many hurtles

Don't know if I'm the rabbit or the turtle

My life needs to be in a new position

So that I can move forward with my dreams and missions

Yes, I'm on my way

My life lessons keep me humble

Because I often make many fumbles

I need strength so I won't crumble

Because life is so hard

Now I can say my eyes have wisdom

I've gotten adolescence out of my system

I'm a solution cause I've fixed them

Now I'm on guard

Until...